I feel kinda strange of myself. Yeeah, really really strange. I have suck my own words about another people more than ten times in a row, and its happen again and again. Maybe, its time to confess that I'm always in stress. This stress drive me crazy, crazier every second, every hour, everyday, and every step when I stepping forward in this live. Maybe this time, I have to confess that I really really missing someone who can share about sadness and happiness. Yeeahh,really miss it. A happy story is always become sad, because I don't have someone who can share about my happiness. I feel kinda in an endless pain novel, which is the main character is myself. Its really drive me crazy. I tought there's no one will trust my story anymore,because its just like an overdramatic tale. But its real, the pain is real too. But why everyone's blame it as my fault? I hate it so much, I can't hold it anymore. What the hell that I'm waiting for. This pain is just like felt down from the gorge. I have shy become myself. I have no proud become myself. What a pathetic of me. This situation is hurt me so bad. Between me and my sense, there's no more proudness become myself. My shadow is laughing at me too. Yeah, I am lost my proudness of become myself. My life is always under pressure. I feel so emotionless. I haven't laugh since a week ago. I can't laugh even people laughing around me.
Am I fine?
I hope I can get well soon
