Withered Mind

How can I explain in this pain?
Oh damn, I can't keep my word
How can I explain my jealousy?
It makes me remind, how can I tell I feel so comfort with you
Finally, I must take my words that I won't be in love with a girl that an "ex-girlfriend" of my pal

Have you ever miss me?
I'm sorry that maybe we can't be together
My friend is in love with you.
But how I feel can called "withered mind"
Yeah, I hope you will know about the meaning of this letter
Maybe this is a thousand times I've ever felt like this

I never have a happy ending story in my life
I hope this is the last time I feel this hurts
I just wanna hug you, maybe my heart can tell you about the pain that I hold

Just give me a one last try
Please...

Frightened

ohhhh, it's 4am and I'm awake for something unnecessary
so I prefer to write something even I'm so sleeeeeeeeeepy
oh maybe it isn't a "dream walking", but its a "dream blogging" hahaaaaa


Whoaaaaa, its been a loooooooooooooong time I didn't write in this blog..
I haven't something to share, I'm not desire to write a "poem" maybe hahaha

I just wanna say somethin', maybe a hubbub story


yeah maybe I'm so happy when you around, and I'm so pleasurable
but I'm frightened if one day I'm fall in love with you
even if people around us says "GOTCHA !!!" if we are going together to someplace,
if we share a dish together, if we laugh together...
I dunno what are you feel to me, but I don't want to be your "special one" for you
not only that you are an "ex-" of my friends, but I just wanna be your friends, or best friends maybe, not more...

if I move too far, it will makes me awkward

so maybe in a week or a month, I won't give my attention to you
I won't say "Eat this, or you will die by your diet programs"
hahahahhaha


I hope you will know about the meaning of this letter

and I hope you will be another sun for another man