Please Don't Tell Anyone

Five years ago,
I remember that I made a promise that I won't surrender
yeah one day I will get what I want

but something happen now, after long long time, its time to confess
that I can't keep my promise
It's hard to move on
It's time that I can't hold that hard breath anymore

I surrender I can't keep my promise
I'm tired of this poetic tragedy
I'm tired of writting lyrics for you

this winter makes me breeze need a warm,
but I know that I won't have it any
even such a little



life's always unfair, isn't it?




hey, just do it something that makes you better
if he was the best for you, just say thanks to your God
just forget me, and I admit that I surrender
this is just for your happiness
please don't tell anyone that I can't keep my promise on

I admit that it hurts when you didn' answer my call

Being "forgotten" is the worse thing ever

hey, I guess I wanna say something in this blog. My currently mood huh.

I guess I was being forgotten by my "fairy of april".
She's never have a talk to me, invite me to somewhere we can meet each others, didn't answer my call, and many things.

ya ya ya, I hope you won't forget about me. I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not.

hmmmmm, what should I do? or should I give up?

hey, I wanna say I miss you so bad, I want to meet you again, and have a little conversation.

You even didn't answer my call. You even didn't invite me for today's reunion party.

whoaaaaa, I think I'm really being forgotten its hurts, eventually being forgotten with someone who important to me


yes, I feel lonely

Rainy New Years

It was rainy new years last night, and it was a rainy all day long. Maybe this is a sympathetic from god to me. I've been crying in my mind. I was crying so hard, just like hard rain that's time. I can't forget my pass, my hope, heartbreak, guts, endeavor, pressure, trouble, destiny, and much more. I have lost my brave for facing a trouble anymore. Everyday I've got something hurts, and it's never getting any better. I have lost someone for sharing and taking care of me. Every time I wanna say I miss you, and every night I wanna say I love you, I can't do it.

Forgive me. I always waiting your call. You've been in my dream every night. But my endeavor is always useless, and its driving me crazy.

Yes it's hurts

When I think about this pain, suddenly I've got hard to breath.


What a painful life

Tearing me was the useless things I've ever do, cause it's never ends.
When I look into the sky, I just can smile, take a deep breath, watch the clouds covers the blue sky.

Can I facing reality again? Could I? Would I? Should I?

If only, I've got someone for share, and I can lay beside her...
If only, its getting better...

If only............

Oh damn, I can't write any wishes anymore. It's hard, and it's hurts, cause my hopes never become reality.

If only it's getting any better