Rainy New Years

It was rainy new years last night, and it was a rainy all day long. Maybe this is a sympathetic from god to me. I've been crying in my mind. I was crying so hard, just like hard rain that's time. I can't forget my pass, my hope, heartbreak, guts, endeavor, pressure, trouble, destiny, and much more. I have lost my brave for facing a trouble anymore. Everyday I've got something hurts, and it's never getting any better. I have lost someone for sharing and taking care of me. Every time I wanna say I miss you, and every night I wanna say I love you, I can't do it.

Forgive me. I always waiting your call. You've been in my dream every night. But my endeavor is always useless, and its driving me crazy.

Yes it's hurts

When I think about this pain, suddenly I've got hard to breath.


What a painful life

Tearing me was the useless things I've ever do, cause it's never ends.
When I look into the sky, I just can smile, take a deep breath, watch the clouds covers the blue sky.

Can I facing reality again? Could I? Would I? Should I?

If only, I've got someone for share, and I can lay beside her...
If only, its getting better...

If only............

Oh damn, I can't write any wishes anymore. It's hard, and it's hurts, cause my hopes never become reality.

If only it's getting any better