Emotionless

hmmm, I think I'm in the bad mood..
what I try to say is always wrong
bad saying, again and again
misunderstanding, again and again
what the hell is happen to me?
I feel emotionless now
its seems like yesterday when I was fallen from the rope of hope
yeaah, I haven't any hope now
I don't have yet
its just like I must move on from my past
I just regretting my past now
but I must move on
something missing in my mind
I don't have something any better
I'm always in jealousy

what the fuck,

what should I do?
I don't even understand myself
Living lie
always lie
I always says "Yeah, I'm fine"
yeah, I'm a liar

please someone makes me learn to understand myself
I don't even have someone to share
always ended like this